Endlessly Patient

God passed in front of him and called out, “God, God, a God of mercy and grace, endlessly patient—so much love, so deeply true—loyal in love for a thousand generations, forgiving iniquity, rebellion, and sin.

His patience is without end.

Like the distance between the east and the west.

In comparison with time, which has no recollection of a beginning and its last breath is the birth of eternity.

Time & time & time & time & time & time & time & time & time & time & time & time & time & time & time & time & time again…

The lines are blurred between our sin and His grace; we are unable to draw a distinction between the end of our rebellion and the beginning of his faithfulness.

The Father’s grace is as real and tangible as the details of creation, yet as incomprehensible as the mystery of a creator who existed before the expanse of the earth.

Christian leaders fall.

Each and every one of us…

The tragedy, however, is not necessarily in our fault, or the consequences, but rather our inability to believe that God is endlessly patient, even with us… the ones He has “called”.

Our preaching [whether vocal or non-verbal] slowly fades from vulnerable, free, and honest, to topic oriented, guilt driven and void of our true heart. We often forget that God can handle the ugliness of our hearts… even after 10, 20, 30, 40 years of serving Him, being sanctified by His faithful pursuit of our hearts, and having to confess the same sin or similar root sin for all of our years… or honestly until we harden our hearts because we are tired of hearing the same broken record play.

Men and women who have been called into roles of leadership… your call should not silence your struggle, diminish the confession of sin, or turn your vulnerability into a facade of perfection. Jesus didn’t go to the cross in order to give you a reason to live in bondage to silence and fear… but to be free in the expression of your humanity and the humility to admit your need for His grace.

Those who trust you to lead them want to know that they are not alone… they want to feel safe being obedient to James’ encouragement to confess our sins to one another and pray for one another so we can be healed… together.

I appreciate your encouragement, the sharing of bible verses, and quotes from Christian authors… but I, along with the rest of my friends want to relate with you, not feel as I don’t get it the way you get it…

Live A Vulnerable Life. Be free.


2 thoughts on “Endlessly Patient

  1. I like your comment about God being endlessly patient with us. But I often wonder how patient we are with him? With so many things going on in our everyday lives that cause us to be anxious, scared, excited, sad, and angry. Sometime we wonder when that feeling will go away and its the patient part that gets hard on OUR ends. Not necessarily His end.

    • Sara,
      I totally know this feeling. I’m so eager sometimes to make his patience conditional upon mine – and SO thankful it isn’t! I’m (very slowly and very imperfectly) finding that it is the setting of my heart on the reality of his patience and grace right now and who he really is (and not who I FEEL him to be) that will transform whatever emotional state I’m swimming in. It might not immediately vanish but it’s kind of an amazing thing that believing in his patience works create our own. Thanks for sharing Sara!

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