This project has been unbelievably difficult so far… The goal is to read, meditate on, try to process and then express the text and how it is effecting my heart, in the midst of my normal [unstable] life. I’m not sure how I feel about myself and my inability to set aside the appropriate time to complete this project, well. That is possibly a lie, I am frustrated that I am unable to be responsible to this project, or any project for that matter.
For years I have been known as the dude who starts projects and doesn’t finish them, I don’t get much feedback on this because people are generally polite but, I wonder how often someone hears another dream of mine and simply rolls their eyes thinking, “that would be [insert something positive here] if he would actually follow through this time.”?
This has to change.
This is changing.
I was at work [Buffalo Exchange] today and was really feeling the weight of my laziness so, because there are 303 people who care about my daily happenings I decided to Tweet this, “dennisgable is so frustrated that I keep ending up in stupid jobs!! I have a story that needs to be told and the ability to tell it… Grrr” Moments after this had posted to the open hands of the world wide web I remembered that I was yet to read my Proverb for the day. Blackberry in hand I went to the mobile browser and brought up BibleGateway.com in order to read Proverbs 6 and in the palm of my greedy, lazy, self-righteous hands I read these words, “Go to the ant, O sluggard; consider her ways, and be wise. Without having any chief, officer, or ruler, she prepares her bread in summer and gathers her food in harvest. How long will you lie there, O sluggard? When will you arise from your sleep? A little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the hands to rest, and poverty will come upon you like a robber, and want like an armed man.”
Right in the face…
It turns out that I suck way worse than I ever gave myself credit for!
The time is currently 2:34am Phoenix time and I am up working, finally. I have sent more than 25 emails out to valley principals and will continue to knock out my list tomorrow morning.
I do not gain a moment to my life by procrastinating.
I do not impact a life by sleeping in.
I do not learn diligence by pursuing laziness.
Solomon insulted me by using an ant, an ant! Think of how many ants have fallen to the sole of your shoes, it is them that Solomon gives credit for their work ethic, not I.
Good night, lazy.
Good morning, diligence.
If you have enjoyed the early steps of this journey, I would encourage you to visit my “big” brother Chris’ blog